| I wonder if it's true... |
[Feb. 1st, 2008|03:31 am] |
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I think that this time I've really found the guy who I should be with. Not forever maybe but for an extended period of time. He's just turned 23 but we all know that girls mature faster than boys so we're around the same age. He loves singing out loud to anything that's in his head, he loves old cartoons, disney movies/music, is hilarious, and the best of all he's 6' 2". But here's the problem he doesn't like me that way. I know this because I told him how I felt and he told me that he doesn't return the feelings. Here's the tricky part, after he told me that he's been even more affectionate and flirty. Now this isn't a guy who knows how to flirt or play mind games. The last time he had a girlfriend was in like the 7th grade so I know that that's not it. I suppose I should just wait it out and see what happens.....I am, however, living next door to him next year.....I wonder how that'll turn out. |
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[Jul. 9th, 2007|01:15 am] |
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It seems that since the United State's economy is competely out of control that innocent people are dying overseas and most companies don't want to hire teenagers. Is there something wrong with us? I may be of age (19) but the only jobs available are for people 20 or older or people with a degree. I'm sorry but I thought that because 18 is the legal age that you are an adult means that you are entitled to adult things. For example, porn and minimum wage. Once you become "of age" you get a payraise. but since no one is hiring people below 20 what's the point. I suggest that if they want to hire non-teenagers that the government should raise the age of adulthood to at least 20. I know it's unfavorable for the present 17 years olds who were oh so lookign forward to being able to buy porn, lottery tickets, ciggarettes, adn being allowed to go into a casino, but this is getting ridiculous.
Sorry for the ranting.
School is starting up again soon. Hopefully I'll do loads better than I did last time. I have as easier schedule and and living near some good friends. There won't be any of that awkward getting to know you stage that I went through last year. I already know lots of people and I miss them like a prostitute misses her pimp on payday. Everyone I met and grew to love is returning except my beloved Molly Kay. I really wish she would've stuck around to be my other half but her life is directing her in a different direction.
This summer has been boring but then again it has had it's great moments. I just wish things were better. This is the first summer where my family really started to view me as an adult and have even talked about partying with me. Weird I know. Other than that it's been the usual hanging out with friends summer. I was hoping that maybe something romantical would've happened but one guy who has admitted to liking me is beign a chicken shit and the other I know likes me but he doesn't want to ruin our amazing friendship. All well maybe the new college school year will bring a new relationship. |
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| NO sleep tonight... |
[Apr. 17th, 2007|06:35 am] |
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| | Spring birds chirping | ] |
A lot has been happening lately. Nothing super exciting except that my first year in college is almost over and I think I made it my the skin of my teeth. Shocking some would say, but I was literally dragged into the world of being an adult. Beign and adult meaning that I have to get up all on my own and go to class, something that I've ALWAYS had a problem with. Then there are those blasted college parties. Even though I haven't partied all that much second semester...go me. Love life hasn't changed really I'm still as undesirable as ever, sure there have been some interesting....ummmmm I'm gonna say one night flings..... not a lot mind you ...I'm no whore. But that's not what I want, and those who know me know that. I came to CMU hoping for a second chance at life, but got a kick in the ass instead. I thought that maybe, just maybe, that i would find someone who likes that same stuff I do and want to be with me and only me, none of this casual dating shit. That upsets me. All well. Life goes on I suppose. I've met some of the most awesome people on my fantastic journey.
I hope she reads this......
MOLLY KAY KROMBERG.....
You pack my parachute as Tammie would say. Of all of us who have met at CMU we have gotten the closest my far. I feel like you are one of teh only people who truly understands me and what I'm about. No lie, not many can say that. It's hard to crack this tough exterior of mine, and by golly molly you did it. (like that??) If we ever lose touch remember this, YOU are an amazing girl and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. You give so much to everyone and expect nothing in return. The world needs more people like you.
p.s. Please don't take my sunshine away.... :) |
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| *Sigh* |
[Dec. 12th, 2006|07:42 pm] |
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I feel like I've been neglecting my friends up here at CMU. I mean I see them everyday but I hardly ever just spend time with them anymore. It's not the fact that I'm always over at someone elses dorm (I am but..) it's the fact that I get irritated with some people and I don't want to say anything that would comprimise my relationship with them, so I leave. I feel like no one even wants me around anymore and going the the boys' place makes me feel...I dunno...wanted. I mean they call me to hang out not the other way around...and it makes me feel good. and the girls make plans around me but don't invite me so I leave. Sure they probably think that I'm being a bitch or whatever but I'm not I'm just doing what I want for a change. I would do anything for them and sometimes I have. I've risked going to jail for them and they act like it's not good enough for them....I'm about to say fuck it...they can deal with it themselves |
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| another night of no sleep |
[Dec. 4th, 2006|07:41 am] |
For some odd reason I'm not tired. I have every right to be. I was really drunk saturday night and I should have ben tired all day today but I'm just not. so here I am at 6:43 am and i have class at 10.
so i've been thinking..... well more like I've been reflecting. I've been really extremely lonely lately. I mean not in the sense of friendship but in non-friendship. Everyone's got someone up here and I'm the one stuck with hanging out with the boys. God forbid they notice I'm a girl. Don't get me wrong I love to be "one of the guys" cuz I'm just not that girly. but every once in a while I want one of them to say hey you look hot today.. that's all I really want. To be realized as a girl. I'd like one of my "boys" to notice...but I think that I will have hoped in vain. I guess the thing to do is just keep being myself and maybe just maybe I'll be noticed...ya think? |
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| ahhhh back to school |
[Nov. 26th, 2006|02:21 am] |
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| | whatever is on tv | ] |
Well Thanksgiving break is almost over and I return to CMU tomorrow. I made three people cry while I was home, but they were happy tears so it's ok. I missed everyone so much. I never thought that I would miss everyone but I did and I'm lucky to have been able to spend lots of time with my friends. However, I miss my friends from school too. Kelsey texted me today, said she missed me and asked when I'd be home. Home. I guess it is my home now. And the home I once knew is now my "vacation spot" I guess that is expected of a college student. But when summer rools around I'm sure I'll miss my new "home." I registered for spring classes. I have 18 credits on my plate because I'm not sure if I'll pass one of my classes. But oh well next semester I'm sure I'll have the hang of college life. Oh and I miss someone right now who I should'nt be missing, but then again I also miss someone that I'm allowed to be missing. Life is confusing. I just wish that they weren't both awesome guys.
Well I need to finish laundry. I had like 7 loads. and then I have to wake up at 8 to go shopping, and after that I get to have family dinner before I return to my "home."
~Morg~ |
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| Oh man I don't know what to do |
[Nov. 15th, 2006|07:17 am] |
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| | Freefalling-Lynard Skynard | ] |
College in itself is confusing...but add boys and it all gets out of hand. Supposedly i've got two boys who like me or who act like it at least. One I like a lot. I mean he's pretty much prefect for me....except he's got a gf. Yeah but that didn't stop him from making out with me twice...granted we were both drinking but mostly sober. The other guy liked a friend of mine and I NEVER flirted with him at all....well not really. But now that he's pretty much over her he's been very uhhhhh... freindly towards me. My friend seems to think that he likes me.... I just don't know.....I mean he definitely acts different towards me. I just don't know if it's because he likes me or if he's trying to make her jealous. i've never had this many boy problems in my entire life. I'm so confused about who I like more and what not. and to top it all off they're both GORGEOUS!!! I mean freakin adorable and great guys to boot... Morgan needs advice because she just doesn't know. why do guys have to be like that..... i wish they'd quit sending me mixed signals.....I have the feeling I'M gonna be the one who gets hurt and at this point in time I just can't deal with that.... |
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[Oct. 16th, 2006|01:51 am] |
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I haven't posted in forever!! WEll I've moved in and college is definitely all it's ceacked up to be. I have so many new friends that are AWESOME!!! Let's name a few...Kelsey, Molly, Kellye, Amanda, Kara, Season, Carlo, Tony, and so many more!! Nothing super amazing has happened...yet...but I'll try to keep up on posting in this thing..... |
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[Aug. 16th, 2006|05:24 am] |
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It's true that myspace has indeed overshadowed the livejournal world. I'm ashamed that I let it make me forget about my poor little livejournal. So I've returned to let the rest of you know what is going on. Summer went by so fast and in a week I'm leaving for college. I'm not really nervous or scared (yet) because I seem to thrive on meeting new people. I wouldn't be able to survive there without that quality. Also I've been having so many parties and the biggest by far last last Sat. There were so many people there, even ones that I didn't know!! All well everyone agrees that it was the best party of the summer. I've grown so much closer to my friends that I really didn't hang out with during the summer. Now I have many best friends instead on a couple. That made me sound like a nerd but it's true. The only downside to the summer was not being able to hang out with Robert. It's like he fell off the face of the earth. He found me on myspace and I acually cried. I thought whatever freindship we had was gone for good and then he reapears out of nowhere, and with a new girlfriend. Well I guess I've burdened you readers enough.....
~Morgan~ |
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| Well then.... |
[May. 16th, 2006|08:18 am] |
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| | It's like that y'all | ] |
Prom was frickin awesome! I had so much fun, maybe that was because I had a date this year. Yup I Morgan had a date! I was supposed to have one for Homecoming but the asshole stood me up! GRRRR!!! All well at least there is one decent guy out there. LAst night was Senior Awards night. I got about $7,500 in scholarships! YAY! that should help in the college stuff. Our last day is next Wednesday the 24th which is also Baccalaurate and the week after that is the 31st which is my 18th BIRTHDAY and GRADUATION!!! wooo Katie said she was going to bring me cake on the senior trip. THEN after that on the 3rd is my open house. I have a very busy couple of weeks ahead of me. The good thing is that my term paper is due on Thursday! Finally that can be over with. Mr. Haggart did my adult edit and he said I did really well and my paper was interesting!! I'm excited for it to be over!!
well that's all I have to talk about...
~Morgan~ |
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[Apr. 28th, 2006|10:14 pm] |
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OK EVERYONE I HAVE A MYSPACE! GIVE ME ALL YOUR NAMES SO I CAN HAVE FRIENDS! |
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[Apr. 28th, 2006|07:57 am] |
ROBERT I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU IF YOU DON'T GO TO PROM! THIS IS MY SENIOR PROM AND IF YOU'RE NOT THERE I WILL THROW A FIT!!
p.s. the capital letters is because I'm very angry and disappointed in you.
SO THERE! |
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| hmmm interesting |
[Apr. 24th, 2006|05:36 pm] |
| Your Eyes Should Be Brown | 
Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom
What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart |
THEY'RE BLUE!!! but I am tender hearted wise, and deep...oooooo
| Your Stripper Song Is | 
Super Freak by Rick James
"That girl is pretty wild now
The girl's a super freak
The kind of girl you read about
In new-wave magazine"
Freaky? Yes. But you're also pretty darn funny. |
HEL YES I'm PRETTY DAMN FUNNY!!! |
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| READ PLEASE!! |
[Apr. 24th, 2006|04:35 pm] |
1) What stickers do you have on your car, if any?
umm.. doea morgy porgy painted on it count??
2) What posters do you have in your room?
OH GOD...umm.. 3 orlando blooms...a giant coorslight rascal flatts poster...a corona man...I have a lot of hot guys
3) What do you hear right now?
t.v.
4) If you could drink anything right this second, what would it be?
pepsi cuz I'm drinkin it right now...hee hee
5) Does anything hurt on your body right now?
my knee and my ass
6) If someone you hated died, would you laugh and spit on their grave?
hmm I would be indifferent
7) What's your job position called?
techniquly nothin but I get money from fish fry
8) What size ring do you wear?
HOLY SHIT an 11
9) do you own a picture phone?
what phone?
10) What is your bf/gf's full name
I have none but am workin on it
11) What was your elementary school's mascot?
RED f-u-c-k-i-n DEVILS
12) What's your favorite bottled water?
Dasani/Figi
13) What's the next concert/show you're going to and when?
UM..... dunno..prolly....B-93 birthday bash
14) What were you doing at 9 pm last night?
Watching desperate housewives
15) What's your favorite Starbucks drink?
don't have one
16) Do you exercise as much as you should?
Have you seen me?? I don't think so!
17) Did you attend your High School prom?
yup sure did I danced holes in teh bottom of my pantyhouse
18) Did you go to someone else's prom?
nope never...poor me
19) Would you give your bf/gf a second chance if they cheated on you?
umm....all depends
SOME STRANGE QUESTIONS:
Something purple within 5 feet of you?
hmmm....nothinnn...hoyl crap a marker!!!
The sexiest item of clothing you own?
shit I dunno lacy black cheekers
If the Matrix existed, would you want to know?
nope I would be content with my meaningless existence
How long can you hold your breath underwater?
FOR-EV-ER!!
Favorite Pocky flavor?
WHAT THE HELL IS POCKY!!!
Your nails were last painted?
what nails?
The weirdest thing you've ever heated in the microwave?
a fork but it was on accident
Have you ever done the Electric Slide?
heck yes I have
How much Japanese do you know?
hmmm I can say hello but I can't spell it
Sparkly things?
mmmmmm sparkly me like
Ever crash a car, been in accidents?
oh yeah I have been in a couple and caused one in the high school parking lot
Do you look good in yellow?
yeah it brings out my eyes
Do you sing?
well I am in choir and I got a lead in the musical so yeah I sing
Ever sing in front of a large crowd?
yup I did 6 times for "Aladdin"
Do you dance?
only if I'm drunk or fellin crazy which is all the time
Is your hair long enough to chew on?
yup and I have too...not..
Least favorite color?
poopy brown...it's icky.
Favorite kind of pizza?
Pizza hut pepperoni lovers..mmmm...
Ever had Dippin' Dots?
what are those??
Ever played an instrument?
I can kinda play the piano but not very well
How old were you when you got a cell phone?
14 I think
How old were you when you got your first car?
technically I was 15
How many tickets do you have?
none but I got pulled over 3 times
How long have you been driving?
few years
How many parking tickets?
zero but I got a warning once....damn sidewalk
Do you own your own car?
not technically
Were you in love?
I thought I was
Do you want to get married?
someday
At what age do you want to get married?
after college about 25 maybe
At what age do you want to have kids?
25
How many kids?
2 or 3
Do you believe in divorce?
I do if teh circumstances are really bad
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1. What is your full name?
Morgan Renee Ellsworth
2. What color pants are you wearing?
Jeans
3. What are you listening to right now?
t.v.
4. What was the last thing you ate?
ummmm.... alfredo
5. Do you wish on stars?
every once in a while
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
ceralaun...or whatever...blue
7. How is the weather right now?
steamin
8. Last person you spoke to on the phone?
my momma
9. Coffee or hot chocolate?
hot chocolate
10. Favorite sport?
powderpuff football
11. Hair color?
orginal-sandy blonde, right now-mahogany brown
12. Siblings?
1 brother who's getting married next year
13. Favorite month?
may
14. Favorite food?
pizza, chicken strips, french fries, angel poop
15. What was the last movie you saw?
The Chronicles of Narnia
16. Favorite day of the year?
May 31st
17. What do you do to vent anger?
look extremely pissed and bite whoever talks to me heads off
18. What was your favorite toy as a child?
legos
19. Summer or winter?
summer.
20. Hugs or kisses?
me like both
21. Chocolate or vanilla?
vanilla with cookie dough or reeses
22. When was the last time you cried?
Saturday it was my last high school performance ever.
23. What is under your bed?
old liqour bottles
24. Who is the friend you have had the longest?
Kita
25. What did you do last night?
got up at 3 and sat around
27. Plain, buttered or salted popcorn?
BUTTER!!!
28. Favourite car?
hmmm... Mustangs are nice
29. Favourite flower?
Lily of the valleys
30. Number of keys on your key ring?
I've got 2
31. How many years at your current job?
since I was 12
32. Favorite day of the week?
Saturday is nice
33.What did you do on your last birthday?
I didn't really have a birthday cuz my g-pa got into an accident
35. How many towns have you lived in?
1 town all my life
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What color is most reflective of you?
GREEN!!
What time were you born?
7:34 pm
What song are you playing now (or wish you were playing)
When the stars go blue-Tim McGraw
Has the death of a celebrity ever made you cry?
nope I don't feel the need
What color underwear are you wearing?
circles
Do you want a baby?
plural please
What does your dad do for a living?
umm.... he's dead...but before that I dunno cuz I'm a bastard
What does your mom do for a living?
Total bartender
What is your pet's name?
Shi-Ann(dog) Bubba(cat)
What color are your bedsheets?
palm trees
What are the last 3 digits of your phone number?
718
What was the last concert you attended?
Oh GOD the Concordia Choir
Who was with you?
Kita, Amber, Heather
What was the last movie you saw?
ATL
Who do you dislike most at this moment?
ummm.... I'm pretty content right now
Did you dream last night?
I don't know if I even slept
What was the last TV show you watched?
Suite life of zach and cody...yeah I'm pathetic
What is your fave piece of jewelery?
my senior key
What is to the left of you?
t.v.
What is the last thing you ate?
alfredo
Who is your best friend of the opposite sex?
umm.... Robert
Write a song lyric that's in your head:
Dancin in your wooden shoes..in a wedding gown..where do you go when you're lonely....where do you go when you're blue....where do you go when you're lonely...I'll follow you..when the stars go blue
Who last IMed you?
Ben
Where is your significant other right now?
don't have one
Do you have a crush?
yup
Whats his or her name?
not gonns tell
How long have you known them?
ummm....years
Name something good about them?
gorgeous eyes
What shampoo do you use?
suave curly kind
When was the last time you cut your hair?
Wednesday
Are you on any meds?
nope asprin
What shirt are you wearing?
O'Neill
What is your favorite frozen treat?
Ice Cream--Triple peanut butter cup
Are you sexy?
nope I'm a fatty
What's your favorite shopping store?
fruckin wal-mart
Can you imagine yourself ever getting married?
someday
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[Apr. 24th, 2006|01:01 am] |
well it seems that you have all figured it out. Yes it was marcus I was refering to in my earlier entry. But don't say anything to anyone. I have on idea if this can go anywhere because it's Marcus, but we'll see. I know he can be extremely annoying sometimes but he's really sweet at heart.
I just don't know what's wrong with me.
I just don't know.
Help. |
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[Apr. 20th, 2006|08:31 am] |
Our first two performances went great. I really felt like a famous actress. All the kids were like OMG!! IT'S THE GENIE!!! I felt loved. Today we are going to the Phantom of the Opera in Kalamazoo. I've decided that EVERYONE should come see the musical on Friday or Saturday night at 7:30 pm. IT will be worth your wile I SWEAR!!
ON another note...
Recently I've also noticed/realized some buryed feeling about someone I thought I couldn't have feeling about. I mean they came out of nowhere. He's sweet on most days. LIke yesterday we were sitting and I had my head on his shoulder and he had his head on mine. It was a nice feeling. I felt cozy, but I don't know if I can let it go anywhere because....I dunno it's just wierd I guess.
Love Always,
Morg. |
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[Apr. 10th, 2006|08:02 am] |
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| | Robbie's Computer lab | ] |
| [ | Feelings are So...... |
| | first day back | ] |
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| | dunno can't hear it | ] |
So my spring break sucked. All my friends were in Alabama or Walt Fuckin Disney World. So I was alone. It sucked. I was thinkin that maybe I would start a myspace but what's the good of a myspace when you don't have friends on it. Anyway I've decided that I must not be a virgin anymore....I'll work on that! |
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| The longest weekend EVER!!!! |
[Mar. 27th, 2006|07:54 am] |
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| | 1st hr hence the grogginess | ] |
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| | mulitmedia class | ] |
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[Mar. 20th, 2006|08:04 am] |
| [ | Feelings are So...... |
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I had quite a long weekend. I wennt bowling Thursday night because we didn't have school on Friday. Friday I had to work. Saturday I went to the spaghetti dinner for the softball players and then we went bowling again. It was Cosmic this time. After bowling me, Shannon, Val, and Carly all went to Shannon's house. I got no sleep. WE woke up at 8. I went home watched The Little Mermaid and went back to sleep until about 3. The my mom and I went to Wal-Mart where I got LONG pants I am so excited cuz I'm tall and I can never find long pants. I got two dvds too. I got What Dreams May Come and Godsend. I told you I had a busy weekend I didn't mind it though. I LOVE BOWLING!!!!!! |
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